Everything is worthless…
Hello Guys,
Today also whole day just went in the same situation yesterday went in. My sister is just staying in one room, she is not meeting to anyone or not even talking to anyone. Okay, to be honest, I haven’t even tried to talk to her by myself. Why would I try that? I never does that, it is not because I can’t or something like that but just because I don’t wants to, I don’t do that until it’s my mistake. If she thinks I will agree to her conditions because of her these scenes. She is very much wrong I will definitely not and I will not let my parents to do that too.
Problem is not agreeing her demand, problem is once I will agree she will have the habit of doing this again and again for every demand. Human’s demands never satisfies and I know that very well, if we agree this time she will do this for all her demands the same scenes, she will create scenes so that we will agree for her demands. It is not so much high demand but her way to make us agree for that is very very wrong. By making everybody crying specially your own parents just for a useless demand, no one should ever do this.
Well, coming out of this today I was having one class, I took that before that my dad asked me of the TCS NQT exam date and about the reservations and all. I saw tickets but there were most of the tickets were already exhausted, there was only two trains around the time we were looking to reach there. After that I just informed everyone that I am booking the tickets. Than there was some issue of Shivani which actually resolved after almost 4 or 5 hours later of the bookings but the final thing is it was resolved.
So, now I, Nisha, Suraj, Shivani and Rukhsar we all are going to Delhi everything is fine now and we have to book tickets of returning from there also but i will do it tomorrow after discussing to all. It was compulsion to do tickets of going there today as tickets may be over today only but we can come back anytime so I don’t have that much of problem for that actually.
After this all I drafted a mail for Ashish to our HOD regarding some exam issues he was facing and our mentor can’t fix that issue so he called our HOD he suggested to mail him so that he could proceed officially, actually our HOD is nice but just too much strict towards the actual rules and regulations of college. But atleast in the official manner he solves our problems. So, finally we understood our HOD when we are having just 3 or 4 months in our hand to remain in college. Well we are already not in college so I will not complain for it too.
Well after that i just watched a movie named Hacked, movie is just waste of my time. I can’t find a single reason to recommend it to anyone it was just wastage of my time. Hacker was more nice. I must mention Hacked is Bollywood movie and Hacker is Hollywood movie. I personally suggests you don’t see Hacked you will just regret for the time you wasted. Well after that wastage of time I went to park, just for refreshment of mood. Till I returned to home it was time for my workshop which was actually of 4 days and I attended only 2 or somewhat of 3rd day. So, it completes today and now I am thinking continuing the course I started some time before, whose 2 modules are completed and I am on 3rd so, let’s see when I will get in the mood of completing it.
At night I went to my dad and discussed about placement, companies, TCS, Hexaware, government job, cyber security and all that could I talk about, actually I was just diverting him from my sister. She is the one who my father loves the most among all 4 of us. Technically I am not in the list of dad and mom too, atleast not on number 1. For dad he loves her the most and my mom loves the youngest brother of us, obviously he is the youngest of all of us so it is natural and I don’t even mind it for my dad, but I am just feeling very sad from inside that he has to listen all this and he has to see these scenes because of the one he loves the most.
My dad didn’t sleeps from yesterday, obviously how will a dad will sleep in this condition, when her loveliest daughter thinks she is the problem for him, reason for all of his sadness. He than also going to work, his eyes had turned blood red he is just crying from yesterday night. He just again and again goes into deep thoughts, we again and again have to bring him back from those thoughts. He is just physically with us and mentally he is just with her.
I am literally towards hating myself, I can see anything in this world but only tears are the things I cannot see in anyone’s eyes, I tries no one around me should have any kind of problem, no one should have tears in his or her eyes but I cannot do anything for my own dad. I can’t even see his face, her eyes are swelled up but he is still just crying from inside and sometimes it came out in night and I can’t even do anything. I am feeling like I should die, but I know this is not the problem of this solution, it basically is not the solution of any problem. If something happens to me he will just die from inside as his all hopes will be ended.
That is all for today. I will let you know everything about the career if something happens, today I got only one mail of WIPRO stating my technical interview has been cleared HR will be scheduled soon. Actually I don’t wants to get selected in WIPRO now Hexaware is fine over WIPRO for me I just wants some information about Infosys any mail or anything but I am not getting it from anywhere and I haven’t asked for that from my college TAP Cell. I am thinking I will get mail about it I don’t need to ask to anyone just wait for sometime. So, I am just doing that, rest of all things I will tell you as something happens, till than hoping for the best and waiting for the rest…
“Attachment to anyone or anything is the greatest weakness of everyone.”
