What should I do…
Hello Guys,
Today was all mess. Ofcourse I am not talking about my exam I already cleared that what they mean to me? Which is nothing. My day was ruined by a perception which is in mind of my sister towards my mom and I know just a thing about perception that once it is made it is hard to change it.
But first what is going about my 2 years. Yes I am on it. I have started a 10 book course for upgrading my skills of Machine Learning. As I love reading I think it would be profitable for me. So I have just started if anybody wants this course they can comment or DM me via any media or socials. This is all like a curricular of 10 books from scratch to all advanced hands on ML. I today started first book of the curricular named ‘INCOGNITO’ book is great but it has nothing to do with Machine Learning it is all about human brain functioning.
Now after all this let’s talk about the ruin of the day. Actually it all starts with a call. Call from one of my close friend who generally don’t talk to me very often. She called me and told me to give call to my sister. After that she said that her sister’s birthday is today and she wants my sister in the party as my sister is coincidently best friend of her sister. I don’t know why all such complicated coincidences happens to me. Am a person with special connection to bad luck or what, it just comes back to me like a boxing bag.
Now the time of the party was 8 O’clock at night. I know it is a perfect time for parties but my mom is of little bit old fashion. Home at 7 types. So, she don’t like this but I wanted her to go because she was very much restricted to home for a long time and no contact with friends. So, I wanted her to go but after a discussion I talked to my father and he allowed and everything was sorted but mood of my mom gets disturbed and this makes my sister sad. After that my mom goes out for something and my sister started crying. O asked what happened everything is fine now you are permitted to go why are you crying now?
She replied, ‘because mom never liked her friends never gave any kind of freedom to her at everything she points my mistake and today also she don’t want me to go.’ She asked me some questions that, ‘if you have the freedom of going around you have the freedom to talk to your friends you have the freedom to have your own choice, Why won’t I?’ The question shook me from inside. I can’t say my mom is wrong because it is just concern which she is showing which is not wrong in any way. But she has to know that her concern is making a cage for their children.
Same happens with me and happening till now I have the liberties but they are of no means. Because I can’t go out of my city. And my city is literally okay for study of people with no vision and goals. All rats can run here. All animals of the circus can be trained here, but the ring master is always an outsider. I want to be that ring master who has the vision, animals do what he wants them to do. May be one day my mom will understand it. Till than all wings are trapped in a cage called care.
“If you love the bird let it fly, as nobody wants to live in a cage even if it is of gold.”
