Lost Hope…
Hello Guys,
Today my dad told me about his experiences of life, the only thing I could feel was he had done everything. He had done private job, he had tried for business, he had done network marketing. Except government job he have experience of every field, after listening to his journey till now I am just glad to have him as my dad. He had gave me a challenge today in between of it, to earn more income than him. Means his best income ever he had made. It was 1.45 Lakh a month this is the target of 1 month and for 1 day he had gave target of 20K a day.
He said the best he had made ever in a month was 1.45 Lakh a month and for a day it was 20K a day. This was his best income he had ever, I didn’t find it much difficult to beat as I knows method to do so, but the situations my dad had seen, were some of those where he didn’t had a day meal to eat and now he is somehow managing to fulfill needs of 6 people. Just think a person didn’t had a day meal for himself alone is now managing 6 people’s needs along with some extra people like relatives and all.
I can just think of living in such a situation, I cannot ever feel that situation as he had made everything easy for us by his own hard work. We don’t have to suffer that much and if I say honestly I can imagine that situation but I don’t know how I had deal it if I would be in his place. Somehow I could manage that according to me but the main difference is he made me capable of handling and managing those situations but he was not prepared of it. How he had survived and how he passed that time when most of the people brokes.
But he broke now, 2 days before you may be knowing of which I am talking about. Today he himself just called all 4 of us and he said the most brutal words of his own life, he said if someone does these kinds of things, than he or she would be considered dead for them, and than you are free to do anything you want they will not interfere but they will also not help you in any way neither financially nor socially. He said me when I and he was alone in the room that, “you don’t send us one penny of your salary but just take her with you, or I will send her to orphanage”. I didn’t know what should I respond to it. I just said him my joining have some time we will figure it out afterwards for now you just rest.
My dad is totally fine in terms of physical health but he is becoming mentally weak day by day, he has just a thing in his mind. He had done everything possible for his children and than also his children are not satisfied to him. I know the whole scene is created by only one but he is a father and no father can ever have a thought of only his one child atleast not my father if he is thinking for his children he will think for all and this same applies for good and bad both thoughts. Today is third day of this all scenario and my sister yet didn’t talks to anyone in the home. She is living in the house like she is not even here in the house.
The whole bottom line of this all is I failed, I just failed, I never failed in anything ever but now I failed in life. I cannot give my parents the happiness they deserves. This is not just for today this will be forever now. Once a thought is in the mind specially for a relation, it never comes out of mind. I can just give him all the luxurious life he ever thought of, but I cannot return his trust on his daughter again. I cannot do that, nobody can ever do that, now every time if she will say something they will think she just making scenes to make us agree for her demands.
Once the trust is broke in any relation, it can never become like it was at the first place, just never. The worst thing of this is I cannot do anything of all this, This all just makes me realize that how big loser I am. I can do anything for anyone except my own family, except my own dad. You know everyone may have various superheroes in there life, I was also having that was Tony Stark aka Iron Man which I was trying to become but now I will just try to make my dad’s life like Tony Stark. I am having one Mr. Perfect in my life from ever that is my dad, that is not because he is my dad, it is because he is literally Mr. Perfect.
That is all for today guys, rest I didn’t got any notice about any company yet, nothing special happens today except that Nisha was having an exam of Accenture but she couldn’t attend whole exam because of some technical issue because of which she got rejected that is it. Let us see what will happen now when we will go to Delhi how we will manage things and all so till than just hoping for the best and waiting for the rest…
“Hope and trust both are most important in anyone’s life, just don’t destroy them.”
