How childish…
Hello Guys,
Today, situation of my house basically I will not say improved but yes now my dad stopped crying so that is a good sign. Atleast, now he is in the normal or I should say kind of normal mood again. So, now I am able to focus on other things finally. So, many things happens today which I will tell your from the beginning. So, at first, I was having only one class today that was of Major Project and from the starting of the semester this was the first class of major Project of us as before the faculty that was initially allotted to us was having a class clashing with our class timing.
So, now our faculty has been changed, so today was the first class of it and the shocking thing is I haven’t chose my topic yet, many students doesn’t but the shocking thing is, I am not having an idea of what should I do as usually I always had a project to work but this time I am not having any. But you all know why am I not having any project this semester as at the starting of the semester I decided that this semester is wholly dedicated to either placements or rest nothing else.
So, I haven’t decided any topic yet but I will do it on time I know that so I am not taking that much of pressure of it. After that we got mail from TCS NQT stating that our exam will be scheduled between 18 to 21 this month and we will get our hall tickets soon, I don’t know the meaning of their soon but yes in next 2 to 3 days we would get our hall tickets probably as not much time is left for 18th of Feb only 5 days to go.
Well keeping that a side, I watched my favorite cartoon series today that I loved once the most and it still is my favorite, it is Beyblade Metal Saga today I watched metal fusion but I loves fusion and fury both seasons of it. I was literally crazy for it and today also I was wishing I had Beyblade in my hand. Once I was having a whole collection of Beyblades of almost every price, starting from 5 Rs. Beys to 5000 Rs. Bey sets. There was a time when I even cried for my bey. I only cried for 2 toys ever.
I was actually having both but I cried because one was broke into pieces and one was lost. I stopped crying when the broke one was fixed by my mom and the lost one was found by her. The first one was a car which my dad gave me and second one was a bey, from which I won all the Beyblade matches I ever had at that time. That was like my partner, I talks to it, I lives with it, I takes care of it. I learned techniques of blade matches by watching Beyblade metal saga. I know that is very childish but at that time I was thinking like I will be the best blader in the world.
Well that was my childhood and honestly, I feels like I just had my childhood only than as after like 7th my childhood was over and I totally started focusing on my future, career and family. Actually that is the main reason that I don’t have many memories of my childhood because I was introvert and I just lives in my own life. Okay keeping that a side, after watching that I went to Pawan house, one sec I must mention if I got chance now I again wants to do those matches. Okay, so I went to Pawan house because he needs the CDS exam papers I had gave. So, I take them with me to his house.
I also wanted to meet him to say him to take care of my family once I will left from here as now I cannot count on my sister and rest both are very small in age so, he is the only one I can trust for my family on and he is like brother for me, as both of our family knows each of us properly. My mom trust him as she trusts on me, sometimes she trust more than me on him I don’t know why but yes, this is the case. So, he is the only one who can look for my family when I will not be here. I must clear that I am talking about social help not financial for that I am sufficient but if they need someone to be present physically for some work they can ask to him for that in place of me.
After that I went to park for some time to cool my mood and than I returned to home than watched some videos on YouTube as I was having no special work to do. Mean while Nisha called me as she was having an exam of GATE today. She told exam was nice and she gave it very nicely, so I think she will qualify the exam i am not predicting anything but I feels like that only. When I was talking with her I was thinking when should I start the practice of aptitude for TCS NQT as I needs revision of it very much. So, I told her, I will start it after tomorrow as tomorrow is basic programming practice with Suraj, Rukhsar and may be Shivani. But she told me to start it from today, and I don’t know why but I accepted her words and I started the practice.
I revised 3 topics till now, Time and Work, Permutations and Combinations and Probability. I will revise further topics tomorrow as now it is very late and we have planned to go for a walk in the morning, In that we I, Pawan and some of my school friends comes. So, I just revised these 3 from which I have already make Shivani revise 2 and now told her to practice and tomorrow we will revise programming basically Python, let’s see what will happen now, You know what I am just missing the time of my blading. I am thinking to again start collecting those blades. I got an idea actually it is not a practically possible idea but yes I have an idea, idea is that we know many companies are trying to copy digital state of human minds for further upload it to a robot or AI, I am thinking of doing it for animals, what if animal’s minds are saved digitally and uploads them to our blades.
Okay let’s come back to reality, I don’t know is it even possible or not but if this experiment for humans will be successful, I will try to suggest this idea. So, today I am just resting here that was all for today, I just hope if I gets new blade I will make a bond like before with it. I don’t know why I am behaving this much childish today but that was the only thing I loved in my childhood kind of silly dream that I dreamt, for which I did practice and created new tricks to win the match. Well coming back, today I didn’t get any mail except TCS and i am totally fine with it, now I am not even thinking of them. I am satisfied from which I am having if I will get further opportunity I will work for it and than forget it, if got selected, great otherwise the thing which is going on will be continued. So, till than hoping for the best and waiting for the rest…
“Sometimes you just have to go back in your childhood to come out of the state of mind you hates.”
