This is why I say to leave me…
Hello Guys,
Today I basically spent my whole time actually I should say I wasted my whole time in understanding the scripts in speech recognition package and pyttsx3 package in Python, but I got nothing I looked various references so that they could fit in my head but may be first I have to look at there logic or concepts theoretically, I had tried to find out that also but I got nothing no reference for any of them, so I started to focus on Kivy for now because I also have to learn that for android app development.
So, that all took my whole day and literally speaking I didn’t understand anything in the scripts, I understood the flow of code and connections of the packages files from where what is coming but even than how is that working, I can’t understand that. Hoping I will get any guidance or reference for that, I literally needs that.
So, leaving this topic, our college has sent the undertaking form for registration of next semester and this will be our final semester. Okay, that doesn’t matter point is they are saying to print the undertaking than wants from us to fill that and than we will again make the pdf of that printed sheet and than send to them. Can anybody explain me what is the benefit of that? I can’t understand what will they get by all this paperwork, they will not get money of printing, they will not get even forms for records than why are they doing this. I don’t know about anybody else but I have submitted it in digital form I downloaded the pdf converted it in word and filled it at the place of signatures I scanned my and my father’s signature and paste the pic of that.
If they will consider that than it is okay because I will not take print out of it at any cost why should I? I will argue with them at most I can but I will not take print out of it. it is basically worthless from all aspects. So, I don’t know of anybody but I have done it and I will suggest the same way for everybody atleast I can say it in council if possible that I have atleast done the things without wastage of papers and ask them Can you tell me what is the problem in this method why you all wants us to print that slip? Just tell me the worth of that printed slip.
Rest I don’t know I should say that or not but I have started this blog just to share my feelings so, I don’t know I am vey much confused in between What should I do? and What am I doing? I am actually doing nothing technically, I am just giving time in random things, I don’t have any proper structure of anything which is making me more scared of my future day by day. Basically I don’t want to think about that and I don’t do that mostly as I can find solution for any condition can come out of any condition that can ever I have if my brain works correctly. So, I mostly don’t thinks about it but when someone else asks me or shows me that someone has joined a job or done this, at that time for them I just say ‘Nice’ or ‘Great’ but from inside I always wonder am I putting as much efforts as I should, for my dream comes true.
Actually you know my biggest fear, it is not any ghost, human, situation not even death of someone, as I knows everyone have to go and everyone will go I will be sad if I cannot make their life good before their leave. But I never fears of that I know the truth of world here people doesn’t remain for more than 3 years or 4 basically you lost the contact they gone, so why to fear for these fake people. I am just feared of my dreams, I don’t know I the thing always make me scared is my own dreams, actually some dreams I never wants that they come true and some are those which I desperately wants to make them reality.
But the problem is I don’t know either I am on track or off track, actually I am never on track I always wonders at the sides of that track because to literally get on the track I want the guidance or definite structure of work but I have no one for that. I just learn what I thinks may be important or may be they can help me in constructing my dream but nothing comes to end and no result I ever can see. I haven’t seen any result of any of my initiative ever. Every time the same thing happen, when I thinks I am almost at the end of it something suddenly happens which just cancels everything. The same happens with my education, my many initiatives of different things and I don’t want but may be the same will happen to my dream.
I am not losing hope or converting negative or any such thing, I am just sharing the truth of my life those who wants to say me that they are with me I appreciate them and their feelings and I will always make efforts for my dream I will never stop before I reach there at any cost but I must say to those who are standing with me please stop thinking about me and my welfare, I am not that person which you thinks I am, you literally don’t know me at all either you are with me for 5 months or 5 years doesn’t matter you don’t know me. So, I can just advice to you nothing else I can not do in this matter, I can just say I can learn, I can make efforts but the goal…
“Always accept your destiny, you can loose things written in your destiny without efforts but never can get more than written in it”
