Hopeless hope…
Hello Guys,
Today my day was going in very peace but from evening my whole mood spoiled just because of the thing I was waiting for almost 1 month from, actually mail from WIPRO came today, it was same as from last 2 mails but this time our responses were change, this time we have completed our exams, so this time they asked about the expected result date and I am not sure about it but I am sure that atleast it will not come before the July so for spare time I have submitted the expected date to be till 30th July.
Well just to confirm that I asked about the expected date of the result to my mentor, my mood started to spoil when she replied with your Swayam exam is remaining so nothing can be said, well those who don’t know this is that course in which our college enrolled us forcefully, that online course which doesn’t even have to do anything to our college degree but if we fails in that or even if the exam would not happen then our degree will not be provided to us till the exam is not cleared.
First thing is that this rule of providing degree was applied only in our department, it is not compulsory for any department in the college but it is compulsory for us, I am literally fed up of this nonsense. Second thing is that we are not denying to give the exam but it’s exam even is not fixed when will it going to be conducted, even if they are going to be conducted or not nothing is fixed for now and our degree is based on the exam which itself isn’t fixed that is the thing which is spoiling my mood the most. Literally think about it we have done everything which should be done for the degree but this nonsense is stopping our degree, this is literally unbelievably nonsense thing.
Well for now atleast i have filled the date of 30th July hopefully till then the result will be declared which is most probable to happen, so according to this one thing is confirmed, we will will join company after July, this is just my prediction which if you all remembered I had predicted long ago but today I feels it to be confirmed, so let’s see how much my prediction will be true, today many more things happen actually my whole day today was very very much worse for now I feels to run away from here, I am just fed up of everything every drama here makes me feel more depressed, I am somehow keeping myself out of there because I have experienced that phase and I don’t want again to go in that phase.
Here everyday I fight from myself and my mental situation just in the hope of everything will be fine, I am kind of fed up of keeping this false hope too, I am just fed up of everything, I am again having frequent headaches, well it is of no meaning to anyone and I am just saying it because it is happening nothing else, I am going through many things and I am writing all this here because I cannot share it with anyone personally I know writing here means sharing with the whole world and that might be the reason I am not sharing what exactly I am going through, one thing which I will definitely share is I am missing someone very much at this time, it is not like I can’t talk but I am missing the presence.
Well this is my own fate no one can do anything of this, let’s see what my fate and destiny have for me how much long these situations will continue with me I am loosing hope day by day inside me but I am just trying to be motivated because of which at the end also I am hoping for the best and waiting for the rest…
“Everyone needs atleast one person to identify their real mood behind their fake faces…”
