Thank You Guys…
Hello Guys,
Today was the third day of me not doing anything, you were may be thinking why am I counting days for it, actually I can’t live without work, that is it is very difficult for me to remain idol for whole day, I never left my work like this ever. So, I don’t have practice of being idol for this long. If session changes, I takes new syllabus to read basics or in my free time I always find something to study new like Space-Time or mainly from last 3 to 4 years it was Artificial Intelligence mostly but now as I have left everything. I am just totally alone now, yes some friends are even now also with me so thank you guys for being with me.
Let me tell you my routine from last 3 days. Firstly I gets up on approx. 9.30 to 10.00 A.M. Than after gets ready and goes to the roof for some ‘Sun Bath’, I know I cannot say it proper Sun Bath but let it be, I goes there just to be in Sunlight as that is the only thing all of us likes in winters most. I stay there for almost 11.00 or 11.30 than I eat, than I goes to drop my brother to tuition as he started going to tuitions almost for last 2 weeks. After coming back to home I just check movie channels if any seems to be interesting, I watch it otherwise I starts my laptop and check the list of some sci-fi kind of movies than find them over internet and watch it.
Till the movie ends, time almost to be 4.00 P.M, So, after watching movie I goes to park and call someone to talk and there I spend rest of my day with friends on call and mostly with my best friend, as we can talk all nonsense things mostly we don’t have any point in our conversation. So, after passing rest of my day there. Almost at 7.00 or 7.30, I return to home and than listen to some music and see some news about space exploration or Elon Musk, after that I start to write blog which almost end at 11.50 or 12.00 at night mostly.
So, this is my general routine from last 3 days and my mom interfere in whole process when I stays at home so as much I am at home in my schedule add her. She just interferes randomly at any time so she is in my whole day and if there is any college work like registration fee submission or any other thing, I just do it before 12.00 so that after dropping my brother to tuition, I would directly on watching movie nothing else. Okay this is not a task to achieve perfection but I am like this only, I know I am not punctual in anything but I want to do this so I as much as possible do all the things at time. That is my nature I don’t have to put any extra effort in it. So, I think it is okay.
So, that is my whole routine but if someone asks me are you enjoying this chilling, I would probably say No, actually as I said earlier I don’t have practice of this much rest. So, every day is becoming more and more difficult for me to keep me far from the work. But I want to stop wasting my energy and time on things which just don’t give me any result no success but no failure too so I am just controlling myself as much as I can. I am not from the category of quitters because of failure. I am in the category of those helpless who cannot do anything just because of his family.
There are many people in the world who are differently abled, they don’t have there body parts functioning but they does miraculous work by their dedication and hard work. I respect them but you know what just ask them one thing how did you do this he will say by convincing themselves and here the difference comes. They have to convince only themselves and every middle class boy who have some dreams he have to convince himself than his mom and dad, than sometimes mom dad doesn’t agrees because of relatives or firstly agrees than denies because of relatives. I must mention I am talking about India. So, the boy has to convince his relatives too and most of the time you know what happens.
His parents agrees at that time and at the end they says sorry boy next time. They just repeats this same thing for next time and every time and in all this boy grew up and his decision just becomes a dream and fade away. Many people says try one more time if fails try again, you know what you can try to a certain age limit because after that, the boy who was dreaming kills his dreams and just joins a job and tries to feed his family and give him basic luxuries of life. Than after this he became father and he does the same with his child and this all continues. If you are thinking he should atleast change, the thing you might know is everyone learns from what they see what they experienced. His whole life he thoughts that his parents chose a right decision for him may be they have the reason for it and without thinking anything he do the same and thinks he is doing right for his child’s future.
This will change atleast in my case it will change, I will send everybody out of my house at 18 those who will be under me and say them do what ever you want to do if does good I will appreciate and if does something wrong than you are alone just find your way yourself. If they will study at that age I will send them to college hostel otherwise if they wants to join any shop they will be free.
This rule will be same for all those if I had mine someday or if I adopt anyone. Both will have their own decisions in their life. Once they are capable of making right decisions and rest about me is just mystery which will reveal with time. I have left the control on the flow of my life now it’s flow of destiny, I will go whenever it and my family takes to me…
“I have left everything on my destiny because I am not too strong to fight with it. But thanks to all my friends for everything they did for me and sorry I can’t stand on your expectations.”
