Just go with the flow…
Hello Guys,
Today I spent my whole day in learning about hacking roadmap and all about hackers. Okay, I admit I fail in resting, that is not my cup of tea, but that doesn’t mean I will return to my project tomorrow, I just left them and I will not learn anything unofficially for it from now. I already said I have done all the things that I can do from unofficial sources, now I will pay less attention to it. Actually I am thinking I should do what time needs me to do at that time. So, I have think of just focus on what I can get for now as much as I can, for different things like I have registered for ‘Space Technology and Applications’ course which is offered by ISRO for it’s e-learning program which is on 11th Jan, so I will join it, hopefully learn something from there.
Rest I have looked for the courses of Hacking and found some of the books for initiating in it. I have basically started reading a book titled ‘Black Hat Python’, it is basically for Python programs for penetration testing and I found it interesting and a good start for me because it will cover basics of hacking and tool development in the language known best to me ‘Python’. So, I think that one is a good start for me, I am not promising anything, I have no plans right now for Hacking as my father don’t like the word hacking, so I have just a plan for it, hide it. I have told them to buy some books of hacking by saying I have hacking in my college course. I know this is a stupid reason but I can’t say anything else because it was the only reason my father can agree for buying the books and the same happen, I have ordered 3 books online.
I will not list them now but soon you all will get a good news from my side for books, so wait for that time. Actually I am now rather than thinking what and why, I am just changing my way of approach, I know I cannot leave my project totally but I have people to carry, they will do what they can and till they can. May be after that I would be able to take it further and complete it. I am not saying I will put all the burdens on them but I will try to take as less work as possible. These 6 months I will try to do no commitment to myself.
You know what, today also my father says seeing dream is not bad but to achieve it you have to sacrifice alot. Actually my parents are really nice and loves me very much they know my dreams are not normal and they are just scared for me and my life they know how much stubborn I am. If I not get something I will left every other thing and firstly get it somehow. May be that is reason of not sending me alone any where for study, once I have a job than they knows I will have a responsibility of work and home as than only I will be the working and earning person for my family and they know I cannot be stubborn when I have responsibilities.
There might be financial problem also because as you all know I belongs to lower middle class family and in my family the main problem of denying anything is mostly because of financial problem. That might be the reason of denial of Innomatics and rest things if I there was no financial problem I might bought a high end PC may be than I have to deal with less problems mostly caused because of technical failures and a way more like these. I am not saying fulfil my demand in that case also but atleast tell to us and deny just at once in the starting not after working till the end.
Okay leave that all the bottom line is now I understood that all the dreams are mine and have to work independently to achieve it. I never thought that independent will one day also includes from family but I think that is the only way for me. So, I will work during job as I would have enough money to do appropriate courses with appropriate places. Just do some side jobs with full time job, savings and all that could be possible. So, these 6 months are my spare for me so I will just read books, obliviously focus on classes may be if something will interests me, try to learn as much as I can, mostly about different different fields of Computer Science. So, that they could help me in finding my side jobs and all.
So, I think that was all for today and I will just try not to involve in any project not related to college atleast till no one asks me to do that or ask me for help but all that will start from 11th of Jan so till than, hoping for the best and waiting for the rest…
“You must have to lose first to taste the flavor of winning, always.”
